This one came out of nowhere. I started writing and this is what came out. Was I feeling down when I wrote it? Was I feeling hopeless? I don’t think so. It had a working title “Jim’s Suicide”, which was a little on the nose. It had a narrator that introduced us to the protagonist and gave us a running commentary as events unfolded.
I quite liked this narrator, this omniscient creature that liked to watch as people killed themselves. But as I re-wrote I knew the story was about Jim, and only Jim. So I got rid of that disembodied voice.
I like to think that there might be a chink of light somewhere down in the darkness with Jim. A smidgeon of hope. I’m optimistic that the story isn’t quite as nihilistic as it first appears. Or, then again, maybe I’m wrong and Jim has finally succeeded at something.
- Published in jamscary.com (May 8th 2022)